Who is this ghost inside
the one who winks at me
and laughs at me from the side
and makes me hurt sometimes
or throws a wrench in my heart
and makes me stumble
or grow faint or sick
and tears my strings
and shortens my step
or lengthens my tearing
and sp[its on my feelings
and wishes them different
why is this ghost punishing me
for who I am or who I wasn't
or something I always wasn't
or maybe always was and never
wanted to look at myself in the
mirror which is self=awareness
and my friends are dead
and my life is spinning away
and I just don't want to stay
I just don't want stay!
how does that make me or him
or anyone else feel cuz that's
the way it just might be now
then or never before and maybe
never again cuz sometimes that's
just the way it is, and the ghost
just don't know the way the synopsis
all fire off at once with that
one statement that makes it all
to clear to murky or be a dream
or fantasy or the nightmare I said
or someone said or the ghost hopes
it just might be
if just might be me, that ghost
the one I wonder who it is, the one
I don't know why he would burn
me up so much and make me cry
it just might be me.