 |  Lynn Beck Editor-in-Chief (& Clio) |
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It’s 2003! That is still really hard to believe. 2002 went so fast that I am not even sure it was here at all! Gee, has anyone figured out how to slow time down?????? How is your 2003 so far? I am actually ready to restart it all over from midnight on 12/31/2002! I don’t know about you but it’s been so busy that by the time I get home at night I am lucky if I even know my name! Which does not help in writing this, since I am one of those people who needs time alone and non-thinking to be able to write. It’s late; I took a break from working on Purr to watch the DVD “Signs”. I love that movie! It’s kind of funny because when I heard it was coming out on DVD I told my boss to get it and watch it. I did originally see it in the theater. His comment was…”You liked it??” I told him I loved it. He said that everyone he knew hated it. That shocked me. My kids loved it too, but then, they live with me. They got rather used to my reading the ‘signs’ and letting them direct me, no, nothing as those strongly portrayed in the movie but the little everyday ones. That is probably why I loved the movie, it touched close to home. One day in my life it all hit home for me. I was talking to someone about all the accidents or bad things that had happened and it hit me, every one of them had a ‘sign’ that I was not to do what I did. I totaled my car twice. Both times the ‘signs’ were I should not go where I was going, but no stubborn me, if I wanted to do something I did not let anyone stop me from doing it. The second crash I had my son with me, and he nearly died. I walked away from both crashes. Another time I wanted to go to my martial arts class even though I had problems getting out of the house to get to it. Well, I got to it and tore my back up pretty bad…. its ok now but if I had paid attention to what God was telling me I would not have gone and I would not have gotten the injuries. I also would not have totaled my car twice either. I now listen to what God tells me. It is not easy and not everyone understands. An example….. I had plans to take my dog out of town to be bred. I had it all set; I was going to leave Friday night. The hot water pipe to the shower broke. Ok, I’ll get the stuff, fix it, and leave Saturday morning. Saturday morning the pipe breaks again, I had used the wrong pipe glue at the joint. No big deal, leave Sunday morning, it’s a one day trip to drop off the dog. Sunday morning, all packed, everything going smoothly, I pull out of the drive and head out. Less then one mile from home, not even out of the neighbor hood yet, my tire blew totally off the rim. I was going 20 mph, and I mean it…. totally blow…. off the rim. OK, I am not going! That was the last sign, that there was something going to happen on the trip. I now had two people mad at me and a friend has not spoken to me since. They felt I should just change the tire and go. Accidents happen. Yes they do, things break, flats happen all the time. I can write off the pipe breaking, it is copper but it is 30 some years old. I can write off it breaking a second time. I replaced it with PVC and I was not sure which glue to use with it. I just cannot write off this happening and then a tire ‘blowing off the rim’ all within a few days before a trip. They are signs telling me not to go. They all happened in a manor that affected the trip. And to add just an even more weirdness to it all…. after each car accident my sister-in-law at the time showed up within minutes. My tire blew in front of her house. That is almost even to weird for me! When I was younger I never gave it a second thought if I suddenly drove a different way home or didn’t go down a certain road. It was instinct. I always found out later that there had been an accident or something happen about the time I would have been on the road. But as we get older and caught up in adult life and being parents we tend to not have time to really think or feel….we just tend to do things without giving them much thought. We don’t listen to our own instincts. Even thought listening or watching the signs may make people mad at times, I still do it again. I am not upset with myself for the time in my life I did not listen because I think its all part of growing up. We have to find what part of our childhood is important to keep and what of ‘what adults are’ we need to ignore. We need to be true to ourselves, true to the higher power we believe in, true to our family and our country, and, yes, our world. We are all connected and we all affect each other in some way. Think about it and the things in your life. Listen to your own heart and your own instincts…you might be amazed at it all. May 2003 be a healthy and happy year for your all! Take Care |
